Do I need to?

It has been over 3 months since my last post. I have not been lazy to write – As a matter of fact, I am hardly lazy when it comes to writing. I love writing. But, then, there was a thought – Why write what I write? I don’t write to preach; I am hardly qualified in that department. I write because I love. I don’t write when my mind is full. I write when my mind is empty.

These three months, I have been emptying my mind of the thought that it was getting full. I was letting go of my philosophical ego that was starting to take me over. I was emptying my mind of all the things that I thought I could do and I could not do. I was emptying my compulsive desires to conquer, communicate, establish, achieve, dream, …

It took me three months to understand the difference between compulsive and complimentary. Compulsive goals or desires are what we create because our world becomes blank without them – recognition, money, status and so forth. The problem with compulsive goals are that they neither do any justice to us nor lets us do any justice to them. When I chase a dream that was born out a compulsive desire for recognition, when it eludes me, I am unhappy and when I achieve it, it is unhappy and transforms into something else.

Then there are complimentary goals – the goals that compliment our existence. They are actually not goals that one sets. They evolve out of us ceremoniously dancing to beat of our own heart. There is never a need to prove one’s self. There is never a need to achieve. Achievements and results are byproducts of the spiritual union between what needs to be done and what one is born to do. There are no metrics to judge.

I am back to writing. When I write, my heart pumps and I go in a trance. This needs to be done and maybe this is what I was born to do.

A misfit? Really??

Have you ever been called a misfit, meaning you don’t belong somewhere like your workplace, church, community, etc. Is that because you are different from others?

Not fitting is actually very good. I just came across these amazing people who are changing how music is played. Computer programming combined with live music – check it out. Another classic example of carving a niche for yourself. The world needs your talent.

Desire for success

Sometimes I feel that the desire to succeed is the beginning of my downfall. I am not saying that success is bad. I am also not saying that is good. When I desire to succeed, I feel that I am concentrating on the wrong thing. It is true that a goal (which is my desire, in most of the cases) will help you focus better. But, in this case, aren’t we focusing on a moving target? What happens when we get near this goal? Doesn’t it move further? That is the true nature of desire. Desire is always moving. It never stays put at one place. If the happiness or satisfaction we derive out of our work is tied to a moving body like desire, our happiness also moves out of our reach. Hence, I believe that my desire to succeed can bring my downfall. Then what should I do? Not desiring success does not mean that my work will be shoddy. Actually, it won’t be. Think about it. Success is usually associated with how others perceive us. Whatever your definition of success might be, it will still involve society in some form factor. When we work to achieve this so-called “success”, we are working for somebody else. That is never liberating. Instead, when we do work for our own selves, when we don’t care about getting attention from society, we create masterpieces.
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